faith.

it feels like it has been such a long time since i've written on this blog. i don't know if anyone even reads it anymore, but alas here i am writing on it.
it's hard to believe february of 2012 is already half way over. time has flown by, and at the same time it feels like it's dragging. i've been in idaho since january which feels like an eternity.
more and more recently i've been realizing different things i'm grateful for. it's an interesting and humbling experience going through trials and struggles. you don't want them, but you need them. realizing that is hard. but it is necessary.
i've recently heard a quote that is constantly going through my head through it all.

Elder Neil L. Andersen said, “Faith is not only a feeling; it is a decision.”


i feel like that small quote has changed my life. i think of it when i'm struggling, crying, needing a reason to get out of bed to get ready for church when i'm sick. i never realized it was a decision. you decide to do something because you've chosen faith. you've chosen to move on. you've chosen to live your life in faith.
the choice isn't necessarily easy. but you reap what you sow. you don't get something from nothing.
you decide to have faith in Christ amongst the battles with adversary. because whether you choose to believe it or not, there is a battle. you cannot play on the sidelines and wait for it to be over because without paying attention, you may end up cheering for the wrong side. because reality is, satan has an influence on your life. you need to make sure Christ's influence is stronger.

i believe in Christ. so come what may. and love it.